Rigamaround

I will do basically anything possible in order to not do something I feel that I should probably do. Even then, I would love to do something and say that I want to do it, rather than I should do it.
It is rather annoying, and I do it on a daily basis, so much that it has become a lifestyle.  I am glad though that in the end, the job gets done.  I AM getting a little tired of not knowing what I'm going to do on June 1, 2011, the day that my lease is up and I have successfully obtained a bachelor's in communication and wont be tied to any specific place anymore.  
-Will I go to more school? 
-Will I wait for a while and get a job first? 
-Where will I live? 
-In Texas? 
-In the United States even? 
There are so many things and my life is in such deep rigamaround that while I know the job will get done I'm getting anxious as well as nervous that I don't know the next step.   It's easy for an outsider to tell me just to do what I want, but I have no idea what I want. I know that simply I want to feel loved, be held when I cry, and never feel alone. Lady Antebellum sings my story best when they say I'm "scared of love but scared of life alone." 
I don't care what happens on June 1, 2011 as long as I'm happy...until then I will try to enjoy while I prepare for the possibilities.